Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Growing Pains

My sweet baby girl is going to be 10 months in a little over a week. She is growing more independent by the second and it just tugs at my heart. For the past few nights, as we got to the end of her nightime bottle, she wanted NO part of mama holding the bottle. In fact, last night, she pushed my hand away and took over completely. As much as it is exciting that she is becoming independent enough to feed herself (correctly, without playing I may add), it makes me a little sad. 



Where did my little peanut go? 
Where did these past almost 10 months go? 
How, all of a sudden, is she able to be so independent?

This all comes at the exact same time as her literally clinging to me 24/7.  If I leave the room and she can't see me, she cries. Not just a fussy cry. A REAL cry. A "mama where are you cry?" A cry with real tears. A cry that only mama can fix.

She wants me... but she wants me when she needs me.

As much as it has frustrated me the past few days that she won't let me do anything unless she is in plain sight of me, that moment last night where she pushed my hand out of her way made me realize that she has the complete awareness of when she needs mama and when she doesn't. And boy is it a tough pill to swallow.

Being a mama means I know it's my job to do everything for her. I carried her for nine months, I gave birth to her, and I've been there for her everyday for the past 293 days. But the time has come where she wants to start doing things for herself. The time has come that she will let me know when she needs me and when she wants to be independent. 

Talk about growing pains. Growing pains for the mama. 

Over the past two days, she has also been letting go of me (or the couch/chair/whatever she is standing by). Yesterday she was able to stand for probably about a minute by herself, not holding on to anything. But you know what. She still needs me. She still needs me when her legs start to wobble and I catch her from falling and make sure she doesn't get an "ouchy".



Babies are supposed to need their mama forever right? 
She's always going to need me, right?

Image from iheartnaptime.net


So yes, my sweet baby girl is growing so quickly. Too quickly for my liking. Becoming way too independent. But that's just it. My sweet baby is still a baby. She's still a baby for two more months, but mama knows she's only two months away from being a toddler.  So for just a little bit longer, I need for her to need me. I need for her to want me. Us mamas know how precious the first year is. How precious having a baby is. How quickly the time flies. And how quickly we all want to STOP time and just let it all soak in before moving on to the next moment. 



These growing pains are a blessing because she is becoming more independent but oh gosh do they make my heart ache a little bit. 
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20 comments

  1. The time really does fly doesn't it. My baby boy is now 8 months old and he is becoming more independent everyday.

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  2. Babies grow way too fast. My little is gonna be 8 months at the end of the month and I'm just not ready at all. He's so independent.

    http://bobaandpearls.com

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  3. That's really a sweet post. You're such a loving person. :)

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  4. Aww! This is so cute! yes she will need you always, whether she knows or shows it. Your the one she will always run back to. Thank you for sharing!!

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  5. I have an 8 month old daughter myself. It gets so hard when she crawls to me and then cries "mamamamamama" over and over again. I can't help but pick her up and munch on her big fat cheeks!

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  6. Such a sweet post! You're daughter is adorable

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  7. Jaxon is 11 months and is just about getting the hang of letting go of the sofa or the coffee table. He sort of balances for a couple of seconds - just enough for me to get super excited and then he puts his hands down again. He's had a couple of run ins with the floor and bashed his face, I do get a little worked up as to whether he's really hurt himself but I'm trying not to freak out lol.

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  8. And the wonderful journey will continue, scaring you, delighting you, amazing you!

    Cynthia @ craftoflaughter.com

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  9. Your baby is always going to need you. My daughter is almost two and she still wants her mama when she falls down or needs something specific. ;)

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  10. I'm in a very similar position. My little one is almost one and is so clingy and I get worn down by it, but just lately I've noticed he seems to need me less and is just growing so fast. It's hard!

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  11. My oldest is 7 and my youngest is almost three (and I have one on the way), but I so remember being in your shoes. I agree with Cynthia though, you have so many wonderful things to look forward to.

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  12. I wish I could tell you that time slows down, but unfortunately it doesn't. My sweet boy just turned five. FIVE. I don't know how in the world that happened. Enjoy each moment Mama!

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  13. I was just saying to someone the other day that the "baby phase" needs to last longer. :( My "baby" turns 3 this year. Can you say baby fever?! They just grow and change so quickly! Savor it momma! Savor it.

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  14. It is really bittersweet, like, "Yay, my baby is becoming more independent!... Oh, sad, my baby is more independent." But trust me, she will always need you, even my five year old son is all about his mom and dad and snuggles and loves. :)

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  15. Every year seems to go faster and faster. My babies are 3, and I just can't believe it.

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  16. Just remember that as proud and heartbroken as you feel right now, with her learning how to be independent, is just as proud and loved you'll feel every time your tween or teenager hugs you and says 'I love you, Mom'. Mine are 14 and 10, and it makes EVERYTHING worth it <3

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  17. Hi! time just whizz's by and I'm sure it goes faster as I get older! Your little peanut is adorable x

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  18. This is so so so sweet. I love how much love you show for her.
    xo, Caitlin
    And Possibly Dinosaurs

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  19. They do grow so fast! Once my babies become more independent, I always get baby hungry. I guess that's why our 3 kids are so close together. But they are a blast as they grow. You'll love her as a toddler and as a little kid too. Enjoy the moments while you can!

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  20. Yes, she is always going to need you, just in a different ways as she matures. It is both pleasure and pain as your lil' baby matures into a grown woman.

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