Friday, July 11, 2014

The Weekend is Here! Woot Woot!!!

Thank goodness the weekend is here! I survived the week with The Husband out of town ALL WEEK LONG.  Luckily, he came home late Wednesday but was out the door not long after 5am on Thursday to catch a flight for a business trip.  I'm looking forward to a relaxing weekend with him - we have some stuff to do in the nursery for baby jelly bean and on Sunday we have our last parents-to-be class, which is on breastfeeding.  My ultimate goal as a new mommy is to be able to successfully breastfeed, so I'm very excited about this class so I can learn more information.  I'm also happy my husband will be there too! :) Mama may have the "liquid gold", but I'm sure I'll need his help and support! 

Today was a fun day - I went to a pottery place & then lunch with a friend of mine who is also expecting a baby at the end of August! We're due 2 days apart! :) She's having a baby boy.  Our babies will grow up to be best friends! My painting isn't all that great, but perhaps with time, I will improve. I painted a bowl for my dresser to store my jewelry after I take it off at night.  These days I'm pretty much only wearing my wedding band and E-ring as well as my Pandora charm bracelet.  I'm not very impressive looking these days, so why wear all sorts of jewelry! Ha! 

Can't wait to see it once it's all shiny! :)

Well, I'm off to lay out the paint swatches so when my husband gets home, he can tell me I'm nuts for the colors I picked out! LOL! 

By the way... mama is 33 weeks today! 7 weeks to go! That's nuts! Here's a not-so-flattering pic, but like I said earlier, I'm not dressing to impress anyone these days! :)

Funny, I don't think I look all that big in this pic- baby JB must be curled up tight in there since she's a chunky monkey already!

Simply Blessed,

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Keep Calm...

Keep Calm.... Easier said than done these days!  But really, the past two days have been GOOD days.  I find that keeping busy keeps my mind off of my worries and focused on getting things accomplished.  I even went to work yesterday to help unpack about 200 boxes of materials from our new reading series.  Oye vey.  Don't believe me? Here's a visual from the day...

 I didn't do heavy lifting.  No worries! :)
Mama was safe!


 I was in get-er-done mode. This was after about 
45 minutes! BAM! Mama's on a roll!!!

 This is JUST for 5th grade. Good grief! LOL! 

 And we're done right? Nope! Now it's time 
to barcode EVERYTHING.

A co-worker and I worked on this for about 3 hours before we called it quits.  We got so much done! I'm going back next week to help out again because that is so not fair to make one person do that! LOL!  I can't lift boxes but I can open boxes, unpack, and barcode! 

My husband told me on Tuesday to get a hobby.  He thinks I'm going to drive myself nuts if I just sit around and Google everything that I think is wrong with baby and I. I don't have the patience to start a new hobby because once baby girl arrives, she'll be the most important thing.  He suggested knitting.  Maybe later. He suggested scrapbooking.  Nah, it's overwhelming to scrapbook. I should start a baby book though.  

While he was at work this morning, I called him and told him to give me a list of things to do around the house.  That will be my hobby.  Nesting.  Surely I'll be good at it.  I mean, I actually don't mind cleaning (probably because our house is so small and we're pretty neat and organized).  So this morning I hung up a few wedding pics - which is awesome because our 2-year wedding anniversary is quickly approaching!!! Gosh, our wedding was just blissfully amazing. I wish I could relive it every day.  The church, the dress, the reception, family, friends, oh I could go on forever!  I was hanging these pictures at 7:30 this morning! But I did a good job getting them to be straight - which is hard because both frames had TWO hooks which means lining up nails.  Success!

For the rest of the day, I've been running errands which include picking out paint colors!  Since I'm in full nesting mode, I asked if we could paint a few rooms. And by we, I mean HIM. LOL.  Mama can't paint! But I can surely assist in the selection of colors.  I went to Lowe's and Home Depot to look at some colors for the bathroom, kitchen, and office.  My husband and I will have to discuss, along with getting input from my mom when she comes to visit next week! :)

Now it's time to deep-clean the kitchen! I told you, keep me busy and all is good! :)

I'll leave you with my mantra for today...

 I will try my best to follow it today, tomorrow, and the next! 

Simply Blessed,

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Support Systems

I've had a fairly easy pregnancy, that is up until week 29 with the whole GD debacle.  I think that's part of the reason why my emotions are running so high and I'm constantly seeking consolation and reassurance from loved ones.  Being the OCD person that I am, I like to control the situation and I expect the desired outcome that I want.  But I'm realizing that pregnancy is different because I have no control over any part of it.  I can't make everything perfect like it was for the first 28 weeks.  I can't make the GD go away (new doctor confirmed I have a slight case of it).  I can't make jelly bean kick me more so I feel calm and reassured that she's okay.  I can't make her the perfect size so I have an easy delivery.  I can't be sure that I will be able to deliver naturally (but with an epidural. Oh yes, give me the epidural) and not need a c-section.  And it's killing me.  

My husband said it perfectly on the phone last night. He said "you have to LET IT GO.  These are all things completely out of your control and you just have to relax."  Even the sonogram technician yesterday told me to stop worrying and to enjoy the last 7 weeks of pregnancy because it's going to go fast.  (This was after I found out our jelly bean seems to have a rather large head - measuring 35w even though I'm only 32 1/2 weeks). A few friends I spoke to on social media said these measurements may not even be accurate and that if something was wrong, they would have told me.  My mom mentioned that as a child she had a big head.  And two of my cousins told me that their sons each have large heads.  I guess big heads run on my side of the family.  Guess it means we're full of brains! :)

But anyways, these conversations got me thinking about the importance of support systems and how without them, I'd be absolutely lost.  Even when my husband is miles and miles away on business trips, he finds the moments to stop his work to call me and try his best to get me to relax.  He had to do this a few times yesterday and each time, his reassuring voice helped me to stay focused on the idea that baby girl will be fine and that in 7 weeks we will be holding her in our arms.  God bless my husband for dealing with me these days.  My pregnancy emotions were fine up until around 4 weeks ago and every since then, he has the patience of a saint and the ability to just say the right things.  I cry at the drop of a hat these days and he just seems to roll with it.  (I often wonder if he's happy when he gets sent out of town because he get's a break from his over-emotional wife, LOL.)

Even just talking to friends and family via text message or through social media helps me feel better about what's been going on lately.  It's amazing how a simple message from a loved one can help me see the bigger, more important picture in all of this - we are having a baby.  Not everyone gets to have a baby.  Not everyone is lucky to be in a committed relationship and have an abundant amount of love.  Not everyone gets the chance to go through the miracle that pregnancy is.  But we do.  We are one of the lucky ones. We may have struggled with trying at first, but God gave us the miracle we had been praying for and it's up to us to be strong enough to make it through anything.

What do people do without a support system like this? I couldn't imagine going through this without the never ending love of my husband and family and friends.  My mom is coming next week and she couldn't be coming at a better time.  Family and friends are what keep me focused on the important things and help me to remind myself that everything will be okay.  My cousin is constantly telling me "Hakuna Matata" and I think I need to start chanting it every morning.  And afternoon.  And evening.  

I do believe it's time I have a reality check and count my blessings instead of worrying.  This is a big challenge for me since I am such a worry wart, but for the next 7 weeks, I have to be strong.  Strong for baby jelly bean.  Strong for myself so I can manage to not have any meltdowns.  Strong enough to know that everything is going to be just fine.  I need to have faith.  Faith in God.  Faith in myself.  Faith in the medical care I'm receiving (new doctor is amazing and I'm so thankful I switched practices).  Faith in our little jelly bean that she's doing just fine in there.  Faith than in 7 weeks, we will be holding a happy and healthy baby girl. 

Amazing how I can get these words out.  It would be even more amazing if I can follow them and just enjoy these last 7 weeks!  I will try.  I will give it a valid effort.  It may not be easy, but that's why I have a support system.  

Simply Blessed,

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Could it be? Summer is finally here?

I am oh-so-close to officially being on summer vacation and I can't help but get giddy about it.  My graduation portfolio is now in the hands of a second professor to score.  My advisor scored it first and I received high marks, so I'm hoping I have this one in the bag! :)  I should know by next week if I can be officially finished with grad school.  It was a wonderful program, but oh gosh, I'm ready to have my life back!  I need to enjoy the next 9-ish weeks before baby jelly bean comes.  

Last night my brother and I took my niece Ava to the Katy Perry concert.  It was fantastic!  A long wait for her to finally come on stage, but it was great!  Shaun and I went a few years ago to her California Dream tour, so we know we were in for a good one!  I actually think the concert a few years ago was better, but she is really creative and puts on an awesome show!

Here's a few pictures from the evening.  Should have brought my regular camera - pics of the performance aren't all that stellar!

Not sure what adventures Ava and I are up to today. It's so hot outside, so I'm going to try to avoid any outdoor activities, but that's hard with a 7-year old who wants to go swimming and go to the park every day! :)  I already have a movie night planned tonight - popcorn, Netflix, and girls' night in! Oh yes, and some manicures as well!

I had an appointment last Friday with my OB office and they again gave me the "A-Okay" to proceed with regular eating and confirmed that I don't have GD. But now that I know the amount of carbs and sugar in food, I'm forever ruined.  This reminds me of a few years ago when I learned too much information about calories and fat in food when I was losing all that weight.  Sigh, such a struggle.  

I actually ended up switching providers and have an appointment next Thursday.  I plan on bringing my results and asking their opinion.  I have a feeling they are going to know what I should be doing.  Either way, I learned that I probably shouldn't be eating ice cream even if I truly don't have GD - baby doesn't need that crap, nor do I.  Not that I was excessively eating unhealthy food, I was just so misinformed about carbs and sugar.  I'm still watching what I'm eating, because I've learned the importance of a good carb-protein ratio that I should be sticking with.  I don't think I have pancakes and syrup in my future for a while, and I'm okay with that.  

This whole ordeal actually got me thinking about those women who pass the glucose test and don't monitor their eating.  Realistically, their bodies could have been having a "good" day during the test and that actually scares me, or they just lucked out.  What's to say that their bodies don't do a good job in breaking down the carbs and sugar they intake on any given day? Scary, isn't it? I agree with checking for GD - but I think it needs to be done in a realistic manner, like having us track our blood sugar for 3-4 days rather than forcing 50mg or 100mg of glucose down our throats.  For all I know, I could have failed because my body isn't used to REAL glucose/sugar and in that disgustingly large amount all at once.  Most of the time, I use splenda (BAD I KNOW but I don't have it THAT often).  It's all so interesting, and totally eye-opening.  I still say that if they had permitted me to go do a workout, I would have passed both tests.  I never just eat and then sit around.  Sigh.  

Regardless, I've learned a lot through this process and I just look at it as a way to make sure baby is getting HEALTHY food for the remainder of my pregnancy (but you can bet I will be making some exceptions the day of my baby shower!!!).  Even my husband is starting to notice the carbs in food.  Funny how I was given the green light to proceed with a normal eating routine, but I'm LESS than interested in doing that now.  Blessing in disguise? God watching out for baby and I? All I know is everything happens for a reason! :) I may not have to prick my fingers, but I think being cautious will be a good thing for baby jelly bean and I! 

Now it's time to figure out what we're going to do today!

Simply Blessed,

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